Is honesty a hard character trait to come by? It has become clear to me through prayer and real self searching that I am not always the most honest person.
Shocked? I was.
No, I don’t have a problem with lying. And, no, I probably haven’t been deceiving you or leading you on. Yes, I really am your friend, and things I share with you are most likely true. Where’s the dishonesty, then?
Really, it’s been with myself. And with God. In an effort to better our relationship I’ve been thinking a lot about how to be more honest with God about what is going on – how I’m really feeling or what I’m really thinking. And that forces me to be honest with myself.
And it’s not always pretty. Or easy. Or nice. And I’m uncomfortable with that.
So in an effort to practice “honesty,” that’s what I told God in the car today. And it wasn’t so bad. It was real, and that felt good.
Is there something you’ve been putting off telling Him, because you hate to admit it to yourself?
March 16, 2009 at 4:35 pm |
I’ve been in the same boat. Some stuff God has been speaking to me about is opening my heart up MORE for Him. I thought at first He was all in. But there are areas I have kept to myself for a while now. It hurts, but God wants more of us.
I’ve been reading up on Chilly’s blog…looks like God is doing some sweet stuff in the D.
peace
April 2, 2009 at 6:56 am |
i’ve kind of been lying about us being friends.
j/k. we’re friends. maybe.
good observations. holding stuff back from god is the best way to get stuck.
April 29, 2009 at 3:42 pm |
This is so good.
It’s not like He doesn’t already know, we just don’t wanna face it… yeah. good stuff. Thanks, Erin.
July 7, 2009 at 5:56 am |
Wow. So glad I found your site! I have been working through some of the same issues, my friend.
Thanks for the honesty and candor. Congratulations on the new baby by the way!
Jen